18 Nov 2022 at 8:42 pm

i’ve been having this heightened awareness of the space my being take up in the world, i feel eyes on me the same way my eyes on everyone i see, feeling pairs after pairs of eyes and skins, hairs, and gestures, and voices, sometimes i get this sudden realisation that i’m looking at another dimension reduced to merely an image for me to comprehend that i can never access behind the wall of physicality, another perhaps much more profound experience of the beauty surrounding me that is the world and wonder how much i’m missing out, how small i am, the urges i have to experience another perspective that i never will, and when i get too overwhelmed i pretend to get out of my dimension and look inside, pretend that i am one of the others looking at my existence which now becomes also a mere image, and then like entering a fictional world i step back into it to try and experience accessing that dimension for the first time and wonder if this is what it’s like to be someone else..